StarStruck

To him he's just a musician,
To me, he's a celebrity,
But man!!
He has my number,
and He actually called... OMG!!
I mean, some guys would just say it, but not really do it.
But man!!
OMG!!
Stayed cool the entire time we talked on the phone...

It was se-real, unbelievable, but super real.
I can't believe we talked on the phone for at least 30 minutes.
Great conversation, great way to get to know someone.
Can't believe that we're having a day "date" together when I go to NYC.

But,
Got to keep it cool!!
Can't get my hopes up over this...
Guys did mentioned that there's no such things as "The One"
or Don't get my mind twisted that I am "the one,"
For celebrities such as, athletes, artists, rappers...etc, there's no such thing
as "The One" for someone who's a nobody.

Sucks! Huh!

He's SOOOO SEXY!!

Gosh!! Why?!
Why does he have to be so damn cute and sexy and mysterious?!
Saw him once for like 15 minutes, wanting to just grab his face and kiss him.
OMG! He's so sexy and tall! OMG!!

I had a crush on him when we were in high school...
He was Mr. Popular and I was like nothing...
He wrote in my yearbook, wish I would find "the one" and it wasn't him
I knew from there that he didn't like me, one bit.
Moved on...

And now,
I don't know why he's talking to me.
I hate it, yet I am loving it.
"It" - the feeling in your stomach, butterfly feeling, tingly feeling, goose bumps every where when he talks to me...

I don't know what to do with this feeling,
I don't know if I should just brush it off,
should I play along, knowing that the outcome may not come true.

If I think positively, I be jumping off again and would probably hurt myself, and blame myself for even trying.

I should just let it be!